母亲

“我们一直住在帕萨迪纳6年。在我们的儿子通过后，我们搬出了我们的房子并进入了我们当前的家。我们想重新开始。老实说，我们住在我们的老房子里太令人毛骨悚然。我们现在住在帕萨迪纳市中心的两间卧室。我们喜欢它。我们现在一直生活在这间公寓里两年了，我告诉我的丈夫我永远不想离开。我们可以随处走路，虽然ryan从未身体生活过和我们在这里，我在每个角落里都会感觉到他。“

“当人们过来时，我通常会感到自我意识到我的家。我总是很快就说'我希望我拥有其中一个Pinterest-Y，装饰精美的房屋。但事实是，我的房子是我的家。这是我的安全避风港，在过去的两年里，它与我们作为一个家庭成长。我们家的美学是独一无二的。我努力充满努力充满我们的空间有助于我们通过我们的一天，让我们微笑或让我们记住快乐时光的碎片和照片。我想它也可以作为折衷的。“

“Does it make me happy? If the answer is yes, then it stays. If not, then it gets donated or I don’t buy it. I love to keep things simple, with a few pops of fun colors. We don’t really have much money to spend on home decor, so I try to spread out what we do have all over. Decorating for me means adding a funky blanket to spice up our old, decrepit couch. Or adding a potted plant somewhere! I love plants."

Max Wagner. I love this piece so much. My husband and I both love the beach and we love how this specific print offers a peaceful vibe. Max and his wife Margaux are two of the most genuine people I know. I adore them. I am lucky to have them in my life, and overjoyed to have a piece of Max’s talent within our home. My potted plants are also part of our family. I love each and every one of them. My dear friend Molly and her boyfriend own a plant shop called Pop Up Greens. I met Molly years ago and we have always had a solid connection. She is one of the strongest girls I know. Having her work featured throughout my home makes me smile. I love being able to support friends. Seeing their craft daily reminds me how lucky I am to have such incredible people in my life, on my team. "">

“我最喜欢的艺术品是我的沙发上方的印刷品。它被称为'县线'，并具有等待他们的下一波的冲浪者。它被我的朋友拍照Max Wagner.。我非常喜欢这件作品。我的丈夫和我都爱海滩，我们喜欢这个特定的印刷品如何提供宁静的氛围。马克斯和他的妻子Margaux是我所知道的两个最真实的人。我崇拜他们。我很幸运能在我的生命中拥有它们，并高兴地在我们家中拥有一块最大的人才。我的盆栽植物也是我们家庭的一部分。我喜欢他们每个人。亲爱的朋友莫莉和她的男朋友拥有一个叫做的植物店弹出蔬菜。我几年前遇到了玛梅，我们一直都有一个坚实的联系。她是我认识的最强壮的女孩之一。在我家中有她的工作让我微笑。我喜欢能够支持朋友。每天看他们的工艺让我想起了我生命中有多么令人难以置信的人，在我的团队中有多幸运。“

Jacqui wears a Forever 21 dress. Mila wears an Old Navy romper and June and January headband. ">

“当瑞安和我们在一起时，他的玩具似乎需要我们的整个空间。我们在我们的客厅里有一个玩具垃圾箱，当然他的房间充满了汽车，怪物卡车和书籍。甚至我们的浴室也被喷射玩具和卧室接管了floating sharks. I miss it all. I’d gladly take toys strewn across my entire house again. Now with Mila she isn’t into much yet, except wooden teethers. I’ll try to keep it all corralled in a trendy basket, of course, but I can’t wait to play dollies, dress-up, or cars again if she is into that like her brother! You won’t have toys all over the place forever! I say let it take over and play along."

Jacqui戴着A.永远21裙子。米拉穿了一个老海军romper和6月和1月头巾。

The Land Of Nod design team to put it together. Working with The Land of Nod was a wonderful experience. Now when family and friends visit, Mila’s room is a hotspot. We always end up in there sitting around chatting. Her space is so bright and inviting. I chose pieces that she would grow into and love playing amongst. I look forward to reading bedtime stories within her teepee!"">

“米拉的房间是一个小女孩的梦想。我合作了点头的土地设计团队将它放在一起。与点头的土地合作是一个美妙的经历。现在，当家人和朋友的访问时，米拉的房间是一个热点。我们总是在那里坐在聊天。她的空间是如此明亮和诱人。我选择碎片，她会成长为和喜欢播放。我期待着阅读她内的睡前故事饰“

green crib. In fact, that was the first piece I chose for the room. Everything else was chosen based off her green crib. I love her teepee, and her rug is insane! I am quite jealous I don’t have a bad ass rug like that in my living room. It is called the Casablanca rug and it is beautiful. Maybe that's why we always end up in there. That rug attracts us all!"

Mila's Tucker + Tate jacket on top of a faux-leather pouf by Land of Nod.">

“我爱她绿色婴儿床。事实上，这是我为房间选择的第一部分。其他一切都是基于她的绿色婴儿床选择的。我爱她的尾羽，她的地毯很疯狂！我很嫉妒，我在我的客厅里没有像这样的糟糕的屁股地毯。它被称为卡萨布兰卡地毯而且很漂亮。也许这就是为什么我们总是在那里结束。地毯吸引了我们所有人！“

米拉tucker + tate.夹克在伪造的皮鞋顶部点头。

“让Mila做自己，不受哥哥太多影响，对我来说很重要。我想让她有自己的空间。不过，让她在成长过程中了解她的哥哥以及他有多了不起也很重要。我觉得最好的办法就是把瑞安从幼儿园里学来的最好的艺术作品加进去。Mila的墙壁展示了一只由Ryan的小手(他的手指就是触角)做成的紫色水母，一只亮黄色的鸟，还有一个丰盛的薄纸花篮。当我坐在摇椅上给Mila喂奶或读书时，我喜欢想象他的小手在学校的艺术时间努力工作。我想他知道在某种程度上他是在为他妹妹创作杰作。”

“最让我惊讶的是，我立刻就爱上了我的孩子们。那激烈的爱是我所感受过的最强烈的。只有母亲才知道这种爱。令人惊讶的是，我的整个心脏都活在身体之外，我可以持续一整天。我也很惊讶，我的母亲是多么像我自己的母亲。有时我发现自己在行动，想‘哇!我听起来就像我妈妈!’”

“My son, Ryan Cruz, is named after mine and my husband's mothers. Ryan is my mother-in-law’s maiden name. Cruz is my mother’s maiden name. I always knew I wanted to use the name Cruz when I had children. We got lucky to have mothers with such great maiden names. When we found out about Mila, we knew we wanted to name her after our mothers, too. Mila is a name I just adored, but her middle name is Marie. Marie is both my mother-in-law and mother’s middle name. My husband and I love our mamas! They are two of the strongest women we know."

“旅行ing with my children excites me. I love taking them everywhere and showing them new places and what they have to offer. Experiencing things through my children’s eyes is the best! I also love milestones! Those are really exciting. Just the other day Mila rolled over for the first time and it was exhilarating! She was so surprised, my husband and I were cheering her on and snapping pictures. She smiled and kept rolling over. I felt so proud. How exciting it is to watch your children learn and grow!"

“我最紧张地忘记了。我痴迷于拍照和写下东西。我也拍摄视频。我只想记住，当我的孩子种植时，我只想回顾一下。我很感激我每天都在瑞安的照片。他们是珍品，炫耀我们的生活与他的生活有多开心。我现在用米拉这样做，决心捕捉记忆的阿森纳。所以，即使我忘记了一些事情，我也是看看我们的照片时可以永远记住。“

blog and Baby Boy Bakery Kids. I hope to get everything work-related done in the morning, so I can dedicate the day to Mila, myself, and my husband. In the afternoon we take walks. We walk everywhere! Depending on the day, we walk to get groceries or to grab lunch with friends. A few times a week I walk around the Rose Bowl stadium, because it's a pretty good workout I can do with Mila in tow. Our days are pretty simple right now. Lots of walks and when we are home we play on the floor. She is still so little, so she sleeps a lot, too. Sometimes I just sit and stare at her!" ">

“Mila and I are glued to each other. I take her everywhere! She wakes up for a feeding around 5 a.m. and then falls back asleep. I typically get up at that point, make a cup of coffee, and answer emails or write content for my博客和男婴面包店孩子们。我希望在早上获得与工作有关的一切，所以我可以把这一天献给米拉，我和我的丈夫。下午我们散步。我们到处走路！根据当天，我们走路去获取杂货或与朋友一起午餐。我一周的几次我走在玫瑰碗体育场上，因为这是一个非常好的锻炼，我可以用摩尔米拉做。我们的日子现在很简单。很多散步，当我们回家的时候我们在地板上玩耍。她仍然很少，所以她也睡了很多。有时我只是坐在她身上！“

Oh Joy is such a beautiful soul, wonderful mother, and terrific business woman. It's that trifecta that is inspiring. Of course, my own mother offers such a wealth of inspiration for me as well. I am attracted to strong women."">

“我喜欢名人妈妈！我喜欢看他们的风格，想知道他们的日常生活看起来像什么。我崇拜Gwyneth Paltrow。她的健康生活方式是鼓舞人心的。我也喜欢Blake活泼和她的风格！在我知道的真正女性方面，我发现'玛格兰人'迷人和凶悍！我的朋友欢乐乔哦，快乐是如此美丽的灵魂，精彩的母亲和伟大的女商人。这是一个令人振奋的三十件。当然，我自己的母亲也为我提供了如此丰富的灵感。我被强壮的女人所吸引。“

Solly Baby Wrap. I wear her everywhere and she is now used to going places. We have a good rhythm when in public, which I am proud of."">

“首先，拿大量的照片和视频。即使你认为你太多了，也需要更多！第二，到处都带走你的孩子。让他们在第一天遇到一切。我咒骂米拉生活在她身上孤独的宝宝包装。我到处都穿她，她现在习惯了地方。在公共场合，我们有一个良好的节奏，我为此感到骄傲。“

“养育书籍和这样我从未进入。我认为孩子们都不同，以及家庭动态。作为一名母亲，我已经学会了信任自己。对我们来说的工作可能不适合他人，反之亦然。我喜欢寻求建议来自家人和朋友。但是，我发现我挑选并选择我实际接受的内心。我接受了我收到的任何建议，以适应自己的家庭生活方式。自信是对母亲很重要。重要的是要记住这一点很重要you are your child’s expert. You know best!"

“我们是一个玉米卷家庭!”我每周做几次玉米饼，但我换了馅料。我最近迷上了甜土豆卷。我们可以做火鸡玉米卷，或者不用玉米饼，用生菜做玉米卷壳。墨西哥卷饼太简单了。我也喜欢用电锅煮汤。另外，在紧要关头，"进-出"餐厅总是个好主意。外卖没什么丢人的!”

Mila wears a June and January top and Ultra Violet Kids bloomers.">

“我觉得我父母就像我的母亲一样。当谈到举止时，我很严格。我认为我也有破坏孩子的倾向，我可能会从我父亲那里得到。我的父母在我父母上离婚两个，但仍然是好朋友。他们都是如此伟大的父母榜样。我努力和他们一样善良！“

米拉佩戴A.6月和1月顶部和超紫罗兰孩子绽放者。

“我觉得为只有你和你的伴侣雕刻时间至关重要。我的丈夫和我喜欢每隔几周从我们家那里走到这家旧的旅行书店。我们已被众所周知，我们已被留在那里hours dreaming up future trips. In turn, you have to carve out time with just your little ones. My son and I would go on dates, too. We’d go grab a smoothie then head to the park. Days can become so hectic. It’s important to slow down and do special little things with the people who mean the most to you."

“是的！”

“我是我儿子的力量。这很简单。我觉得他如此接近，我从来没有想让他失望。我想让他自豪。我知道他正在看着我和我的丈夫，如果我们留在床上或者如果我们留在床上，如果我们留在床上，如果我们留在床上，如果我们留在床上，如果我们留在床上或cry all the time, he wouldn’t like that. He would always get so stressed if he saw me upset or cry. I can’t do that to him. I have to live for him and honor him in all that I do. I am still Ryan’s mother. My responsibility to him now is to live. To try and be happy despite the pain I feel."

“在我们失去的ryan我的丈夫后不久，我去了夫妻治疗。它帮助了一个吨，真正向我们展示了真正导航的唯一方法。除此之外，开放和分享我们的生活是一个巨大的救命。它向其他人打开了与类似故事斗争的人。它帮助我了解我并不孤单。做我曾经和瑞安一起做的事情也是一个巨大的帮助。它帮助我感受到他，记住him. I try and do something 'with' Ryan everyday. Whether it is something as simple as reading one of his favorite books, ordering a hot chocolate from Starbucks, or sometimes I’ll sit and hold one of his toys. Those are things that help me. I have’t been to a support group, though my online community has grown to be a version of one."

Jacqui wears a top and jeans by Madewell. Mila wears a Freshly Picked onesie.">

“它都是一样的。直到我加入天堂，直到我加入天堂。每一天都很难。醒来，睡着了。当我看到我想起瑞安的东西或听到他最喜欢的歌曲我的呼吸我的喉咙。我让自己哭了，有我的时刻。事实上，当我需要时，我真的让自己生气或悲伤，因为感受到那些感情为幸福感受。悲伤是一样的，我只是获得各种各样的力量day. It is important to understand that when a mother looses her child the hurt and sheer pain will never ease. Time won’t heal, but it is with time that strength grows. With each day we get stronger, more able to withstand the pain."

Jacqui穿着顶部和牛仔裤达。米拉佩戴A.新鲜挑选onesie。

这种关注令人震惊。这整个经历令人震惊。我无法解释。我很感激你们的支持，因为我认为做任何事情都需要一个村庄。尤其是克服像失去一个如此亲近的人这样的悲剧。我唯一会做的就是谈论我的儿子。分享我的儿子。我认为他是世界上最好的小男孩，作为他的母亲，我会一直这样认为。当瑞恩还是个婴儿的时候我就开始写博客了。三年来，我与我的儿子和我们的生活在一起。 When he passed I decided to continue, because why not? He is so beautiful and my fear is to forget! I didn’t want to forget. I certainly didn’t want others to, either. So, here I am now always, always talking about my son. In turn, we have attracted such sweet strangers who prayed for us, kept me and my son in their hearts. I have thousands of emails from parents thanking me, telling me they do more with their children, they take more photos! By sharing my story I have helped people. Now, Baby Boy Bakery has this incredible community of people—mothers, women, girls, parents, grandparents, we all strive to see the good in life. We strive to see the beauty."

“对每个人都是我的第二个孩子，很难向每个人解释。我在怀孕时快速了解到，一个问题是'这是你的第一个吗？”我从不避免说她是第二个！我有两个孩子。我谈到瑞安，好像他站在我身边一样。如果谈话能够达到他的损失，那么我说'我的儿子已经5，他现在在天堂里，“我离开了。那是我的生命，我不怕向任何人解释它。我相信上帝已经信任了我的生活，我想向每个人证明那里有很好的人在斗争之后！在斗争中有很好的努力。我也期待教米拉关于她的大哥。她会学会不要害羞地离开告诉人们在天堂里有一个大哥。我的儿子瑞安也是很高兴避免谈论！“

“Take your time. Let yourself have your days. Let yourself feel angry, upset, jealous of those who still have their family intact! It isn’t fair! Email me and we can be mad together! But once that anger subsides, I promise there is light. You have to want to see it, so when you are ready it will be there. Once you feel the light it will be good again for a few moments. It will get ugly again, too. Soon you will have the strength to withstand the ebb and flow of your feelings."

“我觉得再次妈妈！米拉带给我们的快乐和幸福是无法解释的！米拉绝对肯定提供了一些治疗，但她是她自己的小人物。我的丈夫和我正在努力保持她的观点out of her big brother’s shadow. We don’t compare our children and with the exception of a few baby clothes, Mila has all her own stuff. I want her to grow up knowing her brother, not resenting him because that's all she ever hears about. I do have to admit, I was happy she came out with reddish hair."

“我希望我的儿子能够为别人提供灵感，无论丑陋，他们都会面对。我希望当人们想到我们他们记得他们抓住了他们的生活持有的那一刻和陶醉。你永远不知道明天会带来什么，所以今天做得最好。“

Baby Boy Bakery. I also launched Baby Boy Bakery Kids last fall, which is a brand that houses products that encourage memory keeping. Currently, Baby Boy Bakery Kids has cooking kits that bring parents and children together in the kitchen and a baby journal for mothers to capture their first year with baby."">

“我跑了博客男婴面包店。我也推出了男婴面包店孩子们去年秋天，这是一个拥有鼓励记忆保存的产品的品牌。目前，宝宝男孩面包店的孩子们在厨房里带来了父母和孩子的烹饪套件宝贝杂志对于母亲们用宝宝捕捉他们的第一年。“

“我在圣地亚哥长大，然后去了索诺玛州立大学大学，我遇见了我的丈夫。在毕业生期间，我们怀孕了瑞安，搬入了帕萨迪纳的第一个公寓。当瑞安大约六个月大时，我开始了我的博客和其余的是历史！我现在一直在写我的博客宝贝面包店五年！人们认为我在失去瑞安时开始了这一切，但我实际上在瑞安出生后不久就开始撰写我的博客。这是我的出口是一种记录我们生活的方法。“

Jacqui wears a Neve and Hawk dress. Mila wears a June and January dress.">

“是的！我专注于我的孩子。他们总是先来。当我觉得我的孩子需要我时，我有一个粗糙的倾向。”

Jacqui戴着A.奈维和鹰裙子。米拉佩戴A.6月和1月裙子。

“我还在学习。我弄乱了一堆束缚和错过了截止日期。我搞砸了自己，但经营一个博客和业务很难与一个新的宝宝很难。另外，还有几天的日子根本没有理由真的很难can’t really explain to everyone. You know, grief can rear its ugly head up whenever! I just have to remind myself that I am doing the best that I can."

“我呢！我的丈夫和我很幸运，我们的家人真的很接近。他们总是在别处并随时随地观看我们的孩子，所以我的丈夫和我可以孤独。我的朋友也很棒。我是一个公司相信咖啡约会可以治愈任何东西！与朋友的咖啡日期是我的最爱！我也依靠我的丈夫。我们喜欢一起散步或锻炼。我非常感谢我生命中有这么令人难以置信的人。“

Geo Fox Apparel, on a really cool summer capsule line. Right now I am just choosing partnerships that excite me and make the most sense with where I am at in my life currently. I’d love to write a book at some point, too!"">

“今年，我有一些真正有趣的事情发生了婴儿面包店的孩子！我正在与儿童服装公司合作，地理福克斯服饰，在一个非常凉爽的夏季胶囊线上。现在我只是选择伙伴关系，激动我，并在我生命中的位置最有意义。我很想在某个时候写一本书！“

“非常简单。我喜欢牛仔裤和时髦的上衣。我喜欢酷鞋，用图案或皮革堵塞！我倾向于令人欣慰的舒适。我现在也爱着衣服！他们非常容易，你可以向上或向下穿上它们。有时候我会扔他们当我醒来的胸罩和内衣时，就在右边，像冠军一样透过我的家庭家务！“

“唯一改变的是我的尺寸！我的臀部自米拉自米拉以来已经越来越宽了，但没关系。我的风格我觉得一直保持不变。我很容易。”

Madewell. I love Ascot + Hart for tops, dresses, and shoes! ">

“我的牛仔裤是主食。我有超过25对，它们都是不同的。我喜欢男朋友牛仔裤，当我感到臃肿时。我的高层牛仔裤是每天去的，我也可以穿上那些晚上的夜晚。我最喜欢的牛仔布品牌是达。我爱Ascot + HART.顶部，连衣裙和鞋子！

Bare Minerals. I swear by it, actually. I don’t have a night routine, which is awful. I need to start washing my face before bed. As for wellness, I swear by SoulCycle. I am the type if I love something then I love it! I become obsessed. I found SoulCycle a few months after losing my son and it became a place of therapy for me. I left all my negativity on the bike and left feeling refreshed and strong. I have been doing SoulCycle a few times a week for almost two years. If you ever want to go with me, I go to the studio in Pasadena." ">

“我穿裸露的矿物质。实际上，我发誓。我没有夜间例程，这很糟糕。我需要在睡觉前开始洗脸。至于健康，我通过灵魂循环发誓。我是这种类型，如果我爱一些东西然后我爱它！我痴迷了。在失去儿子后几个月发现了灵魂循环，它成为我的治疗场所。我留下了我对自行车的所有消极情绪，留下了令人耳目一新的感觉。我一周一直在做灵魂循环差不多两年。如果你想和我一起去，我去帕萨迪纳的工作室。“

“我所有的纹身都是关于我儿子的。我有六个，他们都非常微妙和小。我脖子后面有一个看起来像一群雀斑，但实际上是瑞安的占星大星座（处女座）。”

“我爱这个城市，所有这些都要提供。我喜欢我们可以走到任何地方，我们想要的任何东西都很近。这里也有如此多的多样性。我也可以看到我们可以看到我们靠近海滩的地方。我丈夫的快乐场is beach-bound. We have flirted with the idea of moving to Northern California, too. I don’t ever see us leaving California."

Griffith Park and the LACMA. They're both perfect for picnics and running around. Plus, they offer such great views of the city!" ">

“我们一直在走!”我们到处走走。我已经很擅长在婴儿车里塞东西了。我甚至可以在从市场回家的路上赶在我们的冰淇淋融化之前买一杯拿铁!洛杉矶我们最喜欢的地方是格里菲斯公园和Lacma.。它们都是完美的野餐和跑步。此外，他们提供了这座城市的美景！“

Instagram and over at Baby Boy Bakery.">

跟随Jacqui的（和Mila's）鼓舞人心的旅程，检查她Instagram.和at at男婴面包店。